Entry 65
Thursday, July 8, 2004

well. life is getting on real stupid. i quarrelled with teresa so badly that initially i felt that we are never going to patch up. but we did. thank god. but seemingly, i kind of sense that our sibling relationship is getting more strained. and like what my msn nick dictated once, i do not know how am i going to tell the truth to everyone if what i want happens. and one person i have to tell is teresa.

i know i havent been updating much. my other blog matters more though. whee. you cant blame me. i know i am a bit. well. paranoid that i moved to another website because of some bitches plagarising, but i feel that i need an abode where i can write without risking the chance of being plagarised. but valerie has helped me with encoding my html. so it somehow appears like what it isnt. argh! i cant explain it myself.

kind of complicated. no, very complicated. argh.

today was quite a good day. i patched up with teresa. we quarrelled yesterday though, it anyone bothers to know. and i met eileen from rv. whee.

eileen was pretty. cannot believe why she called herself a pin cushion. and joachim told me that shes not feminine. but to me she is. i mean, she was reading in a very feminine position. whats so tomboyish about that. maybe jojo was kidding around with me. who knows? yeap. our meeting was rather abrupt. she looked so immersed in the book she was reading, thus i did not dare bring forth a conversational topic. scared of her temperamentalness. i read her blog once and her words are. .. terrifyin. but it is good to know that she is able to protect herself. through usage of words. whee. thats cool. but somehow, i did not know that mainisah and jannah were spying on us. when eileen left only then did they confront me. i wonder if eileen would scream her head off if she found this out. but i myself did not know about it, so i cannot be blamed. well, i kind of knew they were there. but they told me they were going to find some hardcore books. so i thought they went to the teens section. i was shocked when they came to me at the childrens section.

ugh. am i so suspicious that i must have spies? first was samantha with victoria and now its jannah and mainisah. argh. oh well.

we had rv peer tutoring today. the lesson was on congruency and similarities. and i was vommitting blood when i heard that that would be the lesson for the day. i was so damn pissed. i knew that i was cursing as i did the paper. but i managed to ace through it. cool, yea.

i am throughly pissed off with some rv-ians. i may have a large friend base there, but me being temperamental, i dont give a damn which school they' re from.

i was on my way to je regional library to meet eileen. and zijia's temporary mentor, was just beside me in the bus. and she told me that i bothered zijia a lot. fuck it. zijia is a close friend. is it wrong for me to actually hang out with her as friends and make jokes as friends. if that stupid mentor would like to think that this is called disturbance, i think she was misplaced into rv. she clearly doesnt know the difference between disturbance and friendship. argh. i am pissed. bleargh.

second off. some rv-ians think that their caliber is too high, high that they cannot be friends with shuqun students. they can jolly well fuck off. such fucking egos. if they want to be egoistic, so be it. now, i have only said some rv-ians. i bear grudges to these people only. but my others friends from rv, they rocks! whee.

oooo. theres cca tomorrow. i am so looking forward to it. yea.