175; national day
Tuesday, August 9, 2005

it's the national day of singapore today. sorry, i shant be highlighting the celebrations. but i am just using that term for today's post since i myself aint sure what i am going to be writing about.

my fear's been confirmed. that s cube is now permanently glued. in conclusion, that means that anyone in the group is permanently going to be in the group. not moving anywhere, at all. ahaha. i seriously knew that it will come to this, and with that realization comes with it a mixture of happiness and grief.

let me state something in malay. though my malay super sucks.

aku tahu bahawa, sekarang dengan penubuhan kumpulan s cube ini, tidak mungkin aku dapat meluangkan masa dengan mereka berdua. aku sekarang menanya diriku bahawa adakah ia patut untukku melepaskan harapan bahawa kami bertiga dapat menjadi kawan rapat?

it makes me cry just typing those few lines. i dont know, everything seems so emotionally angsty lately. i jump at everything. fume at every single detail out of place. even madeline's freaked. and to think she's the one who reigned supreme over my emotions before.

and coincidentally, jestyn is asking me to go along with him, aidil, nicole and sarah to sentosa tomorrow. well, i dont know. it's like..

oh wells. i should go.