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Friday, September 2, 2005

co practice sucked. end of story.

madeline met me after co practice at my void deck, along with some others. it seems that some bloody fucker just cannot stop sabotaging and causing others unnecessary misery.

oh, and i shant be highlighting names since that bloody arse should know who he is. a bastard who can only tarnish reputations with some stupid words on his part.

bloody hell conniving since i dont see that ass doing anything during committee meetings of tq. all he's doing is just sitting there, shaking legs and making things seem as though it's all but his fault.

to that fucking low vermin; if you think that you are so great, just eff off man. you may hail from victoria junior college, but get the freaking fact in your head that your attitude sucks. in the first place, i dont know how anyone could've made the huge error of entrusting anything to you.

so just eff off and save tq from unnecessary bullshitting pain that you deem to see us in. cause we've no time for such bloody crap.

now that that has been lashed out angrily..

strawberry.

i mean, okay, quarrels may have settled. but what chances are there that things would change? hello, strawberry can go around saying all he wants, but i just continue being optimistic. it's sucks to be hurt by other's insensitivity sometimes you know?

now, it's like. i just dont know what to think.. half the world says that strawberry is just pretending to be a friend who actually hates me underneath. and the other half feels that strawberry's sincere. whatever. it's as though the manipulation of multiple opinions are clouding my own thoughts.

i'm just tired of going around with this bountiful harvest of optimism on my back. then suddenly, that pile of hope and positiveness is destroyed my mere words and simple actions. it's tiring to be contributing so much to the friendship, to only find out that the whole thing is gone soon.

why must i place myself in such a hurting position? it's conniving that sometimes i go to bed, hoping that tomorrow is going to shine for the whole friendship. but when i wake up, things are worse. and these few days have been that way.

to ak, yes, i do have companions who dont mind doing so. but everyone's so taxed i dont feel that i should bother them at all. it's feel uncomfortable that others who are taxed get taxed more for helping out with my burdens.

to cass, thanks for the constant faith and belief. same to all who've been there for me. and cass, this is going to sound stupid. but thanks for making me believe in things that i never thought possible meimei. and for calling me korkor too. sorry i neglected you.

to all who coped with my craziness and tears, i just hoped that the friendship we shared was because of a real friendship bond. and not cause you've all no where else to be. i'm really tired of superficiality.

to all my friends, thanks for the friendship and god bless. i really treasure our memories that we shared and the times we spent.

damn am i being way emotional. but i dont know, somehow a chord struck within me.

oh, my results. please dont talk about it. it's a touchy issue. this is the worse results that i have. it's seriously pathetic.

HAIL MY SUPER SUCKISH MARKS.

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