194; sickly facades
Thursday, October 20, 2005

it feels like a long eternity since i last had been able to blog. and yes, this time, i am at my cousin's using his computer to blog. many things have happened and my current sickness has not allowed me to put in place the events coherently in my mind.

wells, results of the exams are out. rather happy with it, though combined humanities and english were great confidence destroyers. i'm happy though, since i know i've tried my best.

fasting month has reached it's midpoint. ironically, i dont want it to end. somehow i know that things are bound to happen after the whole fasting period and i just dont want to get myself involved. it's painful taking things in this light but i know that i havent any choice.

being sick is a pain seriously. pain and aches practically everywhere and rampant and repetitive. it hurts and really pushes me to the irritable limit.

mainisah has been a great help to me at this point. she has been a constant encouraging force that has helped me to propel myself forward in light of the strawberry problems and so on. though sometimes i wonder whether the things and directions that i am taking are wise and appropiate.

it has been a trying moment for me. exam stress and the current crisis at home is something that has been an emotionally exhausting task for me. i'm tired and i dont know how to take all the events that have been occurring. it's painful.

right now, samantha and yanyi are freaking me out with fears that they are going to stayback. god, please no. i dont know what to do without them. i think that i'd die without YAS. seriously they are really important to me and i dont want to let go.

at this point i should remind all that last week i have went to orchard with yas and had a black day there. black day? wondering what it is? nothing racist. but it's just that we went all dressed in black.

god my head hurts. another time. bye bye.