209; NaOH + HCl
Thursday, October 19, 2006

bleahh. i am so tired of chemistry. all the chemical equations. i mean, i love chemistry. but i don't love the fact that mrs wee makes things so boring.

anyway, currently slacking at jestyn's house. jestyn is not being a nice host. netiher is he friendly.

but he is a rocking god brother.

i am like addicted to thailand. my dreams and my diary entries all encompass thailand. jestyn says that he is gonna kill me in thailand cause i annoyed him just now. whatevers, BROTHA. laughs.

samantha is even MORE addicted to thailand. aren't you my darling best friend? havent had the chance to be hyper and crazy with teresa so i dont really know her thoughts on the thailand trip.

i gave a fucked up sms to some asshole. oh wells. bastards don't deserve my kindness.

now, no one must jump to conclusions. its just a long lost rival of mine.

okay.

i found out a lot of people are expressing public hatred for ai. well, i dont really know what to do. cause he is being a leech just like how cassandra predicted.

at times, i feel that his conniving actions are simply the reason that has led to him being hated by so many people. should i feel sorry? i dont think so since he has made me seem like a fool so many times. its amazing how i allowed myself to be slandered to such a great extent.

madeline asked me about zihao, edmund and yuxue. since the content of our conversation was rather angsty or acerbic or both, i shant highlight here. however, i was thinking about it and i guess i was self immersed in reflecting that yanyi had to call me twice to get my attention.

life sucks.
seriously.

it is a marvel. how i have succeeded in getting through all the nasty torments of being a secondary four student, the pains of backbiting friendships and relationships. sighs.

ultimately i know that i got to hold on and try the best to keep up with the world. like what ak once said. the world will continue turning, with or without you.

talked to sean about money just now. and.... i found out that there are tonnes of financially capable students in our midst. mann. okay i shall not compare since i may start feeling bitter.

jestyn is trying to speak like a brit.

what hellish attempts.

i miss xx a lot. all the conversations, lame jokes, going to school together. sometimes i wonder whether she thinks of the past that we shared as often as i do. perhaps she doesnt.

i still remember how we promised to study together. but the bond we had proved fragile. so we dont have the chance to study together lah. laughs. okay. enough of immersing myself in self-pity and melancholy. i'm just sad but, sighs, i dont think i should continue reflecting on this issue should some people tattle about it in school.

thailand. thailand.


love me, why don't you?
but i love thailand more.

=)