242; dreams and friends
Thursday, February 22, 2007

shengli sms-ed me yesterday. so did nigel. apparently, some of the og members of two five have been wondering what's the reason behind my absence. shengli was a bit annoyed that i've not been replying her. she even asked nigel as to whether i've changed phone numbers.

i guess i had to come clean about everything. i told her that i was emotionally upset and wasnt that focused to be doing lessons and lectures. she told me that i should've confided in the og members.

however, the thing that brings me down is that, somehow i feel that the og members have moved on. okay, i'm not trying to make it sound like the og cannot have other friends. when i state that they've moved on, it is in the sense that they have met new friends and now the og is practically last on the list.

it's true that ultimately, they'd move on. but must they turn a blind eye to the very friends that they first known upon entering nanyang jc? okay, enough of sentimentality.

shengli understood, but she is insistent that i share the problems with the rest. she wants to see me today, but here i am, at home. i feel damn guilty. i cannot turn back anymore, from the mistake, yet everyday, it feels like i'm in denial.

gosh, i'm torn between my dreams and my friends.

it pains me seriously. i feel like a bastard for all this crappy feeling that i'm experiencing. it doesnt help since nigel told me that mathematics lessons have moved onto mathematical induction.

zijia, however, told me that i shouldnt worry cause anderson has planned a one and a half month of intensive preparation for students that didnt sit through anderson for the provisional admission exercise. which relieves me in a sense.

another thing that shocked me was that, anderson is following what they deem as a MOE approach method. then again, nanyang also claimed that the lessons are devised following the MOE method too. i wonder which is telling the truth. on the other hand, quite a number of schools are following anderson's lesson approach, like catholic and anglo chinese.

naughty naughty nanyang.

laughs.

another blow that i experienced was that, zijia confirmed that nine pointers without bonus are confirmed into anderson's science. ha. sighs.

bittersweet emotions swirling through my head and soul.

i went to some jurong cyber cafe yesterday too. to post entries that are long overdue and stuff. checked email as well as some new blogskin. laughs. atiqah and i have the same! what coincidence. but what can i say?

great minds think alike.

hee.

hong hao, atiqah and annis rocks my socks! love you guys to bits.

i want to go out with them.

SIDETRACKED.

anyway, i found out that shiqi's leaving for anderson. adeline's leaving for anglo chinese, which i feel is super far for her. shengli's leaving too, but i aint sure to where.. chunyang and terence are aiming for temasek. atiqah's heading to national.

yunyu's going to jurong. zijia's staying in anderson. xinmin's targeting catholic or anderson. peter and xuejin are staying in catholic. evelyn's appealing to nanyang. wenting's going to nanyang.

margaret's staying in anglo chinese. haiguang.. i aint sure.

okay, the order of the paragraphs are in the following order; nanyang friends, secondary school buddies and primary school friends!

i miss all of them.

teresa! that trip to escape theme park had better come soon, because i'm going to need it. i need to let loose. ahahahas. that sounds pretty wrong, but i don't care.

oh, and annis suggested that we all go out sometime. i cannot wait!

anyway, something inane i did today turned out to be funny beyond comprehension. laughs. i tuned to kids central, since my sister loves watching that - come on, she's like four this year? - and watched this show boobah. it's awfully cute. so round and plushy.

honestly, it reminds me of the general paper video that xinying's group came up with, where chunyang was the obese guy. he had pillows stuffed under his shirt. HILARITY! i was giggling when the video was being played and everyone around me started laughing, simply cause i went hee-hee-hee.

i think i know why i found it funny. cause the pillows created a weird effect whereby only chunyang's body showed a problem of obesity, but his arms, neck, legs and face were of the normal chunyang proportion. i felt so embarrassed laughing like that man. just giggled and giggled. so scary.

meeting zijia tomorrow. wonder where we'll go to eat this time. last time was a classy japanese cuisine restaurant at bukit timah.. hmmm, quite excited about it. laughs.