288; national pride, happiness and daily rants
Monday, August 6, 2007

went to meet my baby today. was really nice. enough said. shall keep the juicy details to myself.

on the way home, i couldnt help but notice that almost all the units of my block wasn't proudly waving their singapore flags. except two units. my aunt's and my neighbour's. like gee.

i wonder what the reaction will be. the number of people waving their singapore flags during the period from july to august has been dwindling so badly. so has the votes. again, i shall not comment further, lest i incur the wrath of politicians and my school authorities.

i've many plans this coming national day break. go swimming, shopping. catch up on my studies and do some reading. hee-hee. i need the long needed break seriously. i can't wait. yeapyeap.

i chatted with cassandra sometime back. i was a bit hurt when she said that i didnt mention shuqun schoolmates anymore. it's not a matter of me not wanting to, but i just feel that we're shifting apart, something that i've never wanted to face.

it's like, i look back to those times in shuqun secondary. we felt so pressured because the standard of the school was pretty, uhh, questionable? there were endless times that we broke down cause of the innate wish to do well and the inevitable pressure that we feel since we're reputed to be the best cohort.

the wonderful times we shared in scrabble trainings, where we did more than simply lay down tiles to score a 'bingo'! we'd talk about problems and rant about the miseries of life. we would gossip and laugh with mr adrian tan. ak, xinmin, me, cass, howsun and the rest. the lower secondary students usually end up gaping at our conversations that seem to go on endlessly without a fixed path.

i love them so much. all the friendships. till this day, i miss those nights i spent with daphne, xinmin, yanyi, mai, and the rest of the sentosa clique at sentosa or harbourfront or bukit timah's al-ameen. we'd talk and laugh after a long day at school studying and mugging.

now, i quarrelled with jestyn and a scar has defintely placed an unremovable dent on our friendship. daphne's drunk with love with louis, which is good, but conversations with her are super limited nowadays, compared to days in shuqun. mai and i don't talk as much. so on and so forth.

it brings tears to my eyes. perhaps i hope for too much. wanting all friendships to remain intact.

even now, when i want to meet up with them, it's so hard. perhaps it's the different obligations that we've to settle. well, it seems that i can't hold on to every friendship in the world now can i?

i wonder if it will happen to friendships built in nanyang jc. i shudder to think that i'll lose og25, ct0720 and friends from mlcs. it's such a dismal thought.

sighs. i can't do anything.

to my baby

you make me so hot,
make me wanna drop,
you're so ridiculous,
i can barely stop,
i can hardly breathe,
you make me wanna scream,
you're so fabulous,
you're so good to me, baby.

avril lavigne - hot