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Tuesday, March 18, 2008

some people's attitudes are disgusting srsly.
i don't know how i made the error of trusting you in the first place.
enough said; evidently, i'm grossed out already.

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fitness and flexibility seem to be highly in doubt.
thank you, morning pe, for showing me how abnormally unfit and cardboard-like i am.
can't stretch, can't run, can't do as many pull ups, can't keep up with circuit routines.
it's a drag, really.
BUT, it doesnt really matter, cause i'm going to start training! (:
must stretch more, must run more, must pull more..
more is a good thing, no?

there's a bonding session for all the school houses tomorrow.
calvin and i were talking about how it could possibly bond us.
a talk simply goes in through one ear and out the other.
it's the activities that forge ties.
heyhey, look at oh-eight.
we've come a long way.
yijia was suggesting we make an oh-eight scrapbook for graduation.
i think we've got to start compiling everything now.
you get shit from last minute efforts, to quote mr goh.

the whole i-hate-myself phase is back now.
it's really demoralising.
this week's health week.
(did anyone actually know that it's health week before it was announced?)
WELL, ANYWAY, they were talking about skin problems and weight management.
yes, it's like double stabs into my heart.
there was this booth near the bookshop that was selling facial products.
kathy and faye flew over like magnets, when they've PERFECT complexions.
it's a bit sad really, when i look at myself in the mirror, and see another angry spot.

friends and family say that i'm passing the stage of the peak of bad skin period.
they say i should take comfort in that.
guess they don't really understand how it feels like.
i'm like so embarrassed about it.
the embarrassment's augmented by the fact that i'm surrounded by people with hollywood skin.
like benjamin, melvrick, jazzy, blah blah, you get the picture.

it's highly, highly demoralising.

on another demoralising note, NUS open house last saturday left me crushed.
i gave up on my previous aim, since it's impossible really.
i need an impressive extra curricular activities and achievements.
i must hold good ranks in the abovementioned activities.
i won't cut it, really.
but i found a course that i'm pretty attracted to.
biological sciences. (:
it's a bit sad that i've lost that initial dream, but it doesnt matter.
i'm pretty satisfied with this new choice.

apparently, i'm not the only one interested in science research as a career.
yijia, melvrick, calvin and nicole are interested too! (:
totally PWNS.

service learning today at orchid park secondary school was pretty cool.
it had more direction and aim.
the students are also more settled in with having us as tutors.
yijia totally owns at handling discipline problems.
a sentence from her, and the Machiavellian that was causing disruptions fell silent.
she can even mete out punishment.
MAAAAN, yijia, MOE will bow down to your disciplinary approaches. (:

kaipeng, me, melvrick and fairuz were teasing her and jonathan.
we were saying that their future children are going to be treated like NS-men.
jonathan and yijia are totally on different frequencies laaaa.
but they're always SOOO SWEET.

(:

quote madeline,
it's assuring to know that love actually exists in this world, don't you think?

there's this volleyball program in singapore sports council.
jason suggested it.
it comes at a pretty nice time, since my hands get itchy whenever i see volleyballers warming up outside the MPH.
except that it's on thursday, my longest day, and i've to travel to the venue in one hour.
training's for three hours.
I TOTALLY GOT TO FIND A BIGGGG BAG.
i'll need to stuff three attires in.
ZOMFG.
one for pe in school, one for volleyball, one to change into after that.
i'm gonna be beyond shagged the moment i get home.

jaswin, thanks for the titanic analogy.

love is like the titanic, strong and promising.
however, when it meets an obstruction, it falls apart.

ha, shows a cynical attitude doesnt it?