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Wednesday, March 19, 2008

must you really scream at each other so badly?
must you take out your frustrations on each other?
it won't solve anything.
why can't we just be a big happy family?
why is it that, for the past few days, it's me hearing dulcet tones and doors slamming?
it breaks my heart.
i reached my limit today.
as you both unleashed your fury, i holed up in my room, crying like a 5 year old.
i felt tensed and frightened by all the anger reverberating around me.
it's never been so bad, so tell me why has things changed?

i can't stay strong in light of such hurt anymore, i can't.

- - -

so many good things happened today, but my mood's been destroyed by recent events.
house meeting saw oh-eight being ultra hyper and enthusiastic.
i spent more time laughing then cheering,
and i'm still pondering as to whether that's good or bad.
the jokes cracked were hilarious.
though i still think that sid is really annoying.

after the meeting, huiqun, calvin and i went to subway's at amk hub.
where i had a footlong meatball marinara.
screw you mean people who claim that i'm always on diet.
calvin had a footlong too.
huiqun was against the idea of eating footlong, and in the end, she bought 2 six-inched ones.
she's like, a total cuckoo. (:

after eating, we spent like, an hour just chatting.
about school, muggers, future career options, relationships etc.
we were talking about how we wanted a job we were passionate about.
how we wanted to attain financial stability and help our siblings and parents.
how we wanted the very best for ourselves and for everyone around us.
then we realised how hard is it going to be to achieve it all.

huiqun and i were talking about how we won't even bother attempting to get a scholarship.
since ms leong told us not to take 11 academic units for whatever reason.
unfortunately, 99 percent of the scholarships demand that requirement.
we shall just get a loan and pay it off, save money and future our studies.
i make it sound so simple. (:

then we went into the topic of relationships.
huiqun claimed that people who get into relationships hope to get married and uhh, reproduce.
when she said that, i swore i gave the loudest 'no!' in the restaurant.
i mean, for me, it's more of me wanting a real companion.
someone you love unconditionally, but NOT TO REPRODUCE.
man, huiqun made it sounds like we're all rabbits!
calvin concurred with me.
especially now, in this age where cost of living is ridiculously expensive,
reproducing shouldn't be a priority. (:

we talked about a plethora of other things, and i've no mood to blog it all.
so we decided that we'd got to get going.
calvin went home, while huiqun accompanied me to get a bag for my external cca.
GUESS WHAT IS IT?

volleyball!

laughs.
since i'm not given an equal chance at learning, might as well sign up outside.
it's quite a bold move on my part; i never sign up for anything alone.
calvin was saying:
'for azri to go for something alone, means he's crazy about it.'
MAN! my friends know me so damn well.
i love my friends, totally!

so huiqun and i saw this adidas bag.
after much consideration, i got it.
quite a good deal too! (:
and it fits everything nicely.

volleyball tomorrow.
but the coach has yet to reply.
if he doesnt, i'm gonna make sure he eats bombs disguised as meatballs!
GRRRR.