Sunday, February 22, 2009

i've never felt so down before.
the emptiness is killing me.
days are spent helping friendships that are in crisis.
i'm glad and thankful that i still meet up with friends.
without their company and the amazing conversations, i'd probably crack.

i saw s' hoodie in my wardrobe.
it's the only physical thing i have right now.
the rest that i hold fondly to are the memories.
i wore it and cried to sleep yesterday night, or rather this morning, considering how i slept at 7AM.

i need to stock my room with food seriously.
i'm eating a lot.
in a two hour frame, i had a big bowl of beef noodles, another big bowl of instant noodles, and 2 pratas.
now, i'm feeling hungry again, barely an hour after the pratas.
i'm channelling phoebe i swear.
exercise is extremely effective in increasing one's appetite.

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'got my dreams, got my life, got my love,
got my friends, got the sunshine above
why am i making this hard on myself?'

i feel so alone.